২৬/০৮/১৯৯৮-কেনো এতো ভালোবাসি?

মাঝিরা ক্যান্টনমেন্ট। অফিসারস মেস, বগুড়া 

 Why did I love her so much? Was she very beautiful or very extra ordinary? What was the exceptional quality she had by which she could attract man like even me!  I have seen more pretty looking girl than that of her, I have found girl like a millionaires. Nothing attracted me but herself.

 -Why?

 She is not a daughter of a rich man! She neither was very much famous by any means. Even I loved her. Because I wanted a lady who is very smart looking but polite, I wanted someone who should wait for me even at the cost of her life the way I do. I wanted to have a nice hearted lady who will not have any hidden subject within herself. Mitul qualifies all the qualities. She is a very sweet looking girl, she is an extra ordinary mother, an outstanding lover of husband. She waits with full-hearted love and ocean of tear in eyes for me. She is the only place where I enjoy my full kingdom with full concentration. She loves me so much. I can not stay for a single moment without her. Staying together heart to heart.

Sometimes Mitul thinks I always do not trust her. But her this belief can never be corrected. I sometimes abuse her wrongly it is absolutely true. But never I remember about any incident. I never de-trust her. She is the perfect lady in my eyes. She never deprived me from my desire, my wrong behaviors. She used to absorb everything and never protested even she had all the reasons to do so. Instead she used to cry only. She used to cry more thinking that I am getting pain in my heart.  I can tolerate everything but I can not tolerate her tears. I again hug her and she hugs me more tightly. She cries and cries and I feel in my heart that her burning is going away. We trust each other very deeply.

Ummika is an asset for both of us. She is the centre nerve of our plan, happiness and dream. We sometimes feel very pensive in this regard. God is something very special. HE can do and undo anything we can guess. No one will understand what is a blessing getting a kid at his or her own unless someone becomes a parent. It is a matter of experience. No magazine, article or listening from someone will give the actual feeling of being a parent. It is something very special. We are the special group of people. Ummika will not also be able to understand this great affair with the parent. We did not understand. Those who understand, they are very lucky. They are very fortunate.  We want Ummika should be one of them who all are lucky. I always want my Ummika should be just like her mother. I have not seen another good lady like Mitul. Mitul is the perfect.

এই কথাটা আমার তো প্রায়ই মনে আসে, হয়ত অনেকেরই আসে, কেনো আমি তোমাকে এতো ভালোবাসি? ওকি প্রিথিবীর সেরা সুন্দরী? তার কি এমন কিছু ব্যতিক্রম কোয়ালিটি ছিলো বা আছে যা অন্য কারো নাই? আমার এই ছোট্ট জীবনে তো অনেক মেয়েকে দেখেছি, ওর থেকেও আরো অনেক সুন্দুরী মেয়েকে আমি দেখেছি, দেখেছি পাহাড় সমান সম্পদের মালিকানা পরিবারের মেয়েদেরকেও। কিন্তু কই আমি তো ওইসব মেয়েদের প্রতি কখনো দুর্বল হই নাই? তাহলে আমি ওর ব্যাপারে এতো বেপরোয়া হয়ে ভালোবাস্লাম কেনো?

সে তো কোনোবড় লোকের মেয়েও নয় যে, আমি তার বাবার সম্পত্তির লোভে তাকে ভালোবেসেছি। না ও নিজে খুব বিখ্যাত কেউ। তারপরেও আমি ওকে অনেক ভালোবেসেছি। এর প্রথম কারন হতে পারে যে, আমি একজন দায়িত্তশীল মেয়েকে খুজছিলাম। আমি এমন কাউকে খুজছিলাম যার উপর আমি নির্ভর করতে পারি এবং যে আমার জন্য অপেক্ষা করতে পারে। হয়ত মিতুল এই সব কিছুই কোয়ালিফাই করে।

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